Thursday, June 18, 2015

I'm Scared

I am completely and utter stuck in my depression. I'm scared and I don't know what to do. Everything seems so hard. No wonder why people with addictions don't get help. It's so unfair! You have to have money LOTS of money to save your addict. I feel like the walls are closing in on me.I'm so frustrated!


3 comments:

Cheryl M. said...

Know that I am praying for you, Ana, and for your son. Everyday in my rosary, I ask Our Lady Untier of Knots to help our sons. We did not ask for this burdensome cross, but must deal with it. Prayers and hugs!!

Liz said...

Hi Ana,
Have you given any thought to going to your doctor for a check up? After years of stress and dealing with my daughter and her addiction issues, I was diagnosed with depression. My doctor put me on an anti-depressant and it helped so much. Our children's addiction takes a huge toll on us - mentally, physically, financially. Please think about it.

Anonymous said...

Hi Ana, I agree with Liz, I think it is time to see a doctor and a counselor, going to Nar-Anon meetings really really helps me a lot. The thing is, it isn't about needing a lot of money to save our addicts, we can't save them. I know people that have remortaged their homes and spent well over $40,000 for a 30 day rehab and then sober living and paid a paid for a professional intervention and their addicted loved one still got out and used heroin again. They really have to want it, they can get help in a state rehab like my son did and at NA meetings and having a sponsor, all these things are great but if they haven't really had that moment of wanting to turn away from that life it won't work. I tried to save my son for so many years and lost myself in the process, his arrest in 2012 and the the threat of prison for a 2nd DWI was his turning point. He completed drug court and has been doing well for the past three years, but even with that being said, it's still one day at a time for me. My younger son started using shortly after my middle son went into recovery, he is once again starting a recovery program, there have been many tries. I know how scary it is, I still struggle with waves of fear in my heart, because we know heroin can kill them, I believe that it why it is so incredibly difficult for us as parents to let go. I know I suffer from some PTSD because of seeing my middle son overdose in my home. Counseling helps, my group helps, but it is my relationship with God that really gets me through. I'm not saying its all roses every day because it isn't and when my younger son has been out there using I really still struggle with letting go, his wake up call was about a month ago when he fell asleep at the wheel went off the road and hit a tree. I will be praying for you and your son, I'm just so sorry, addiction really take such a horrible toll on the family.